February is a month of Love, right???..............
....red roses, ...greeting cards,...romantic messages.......all related to the so -called Saint Valentines Day,commonly shortened to Valentine's Day.......,
.......an annual commemoration held on February 14 celebrating Love and Affection between intimate companions.


As u know,the day's named after one or more early Christian martyrs ,Saint Valentine, and was established by Pope Gelasius in 496 AD.The day became associated with romantic love in the High Middle Ages.........

Though my 'Prince Charming" doesn't got his head yet, I absolutely adore the idea of Love.It's a challenge that excites me.

Definitely, there are no half measures in my attitude to Love.When I give my heart to someone I'll be very loyal as I'm demanding of myself and others.

Valentine's Day is a big deal only for those who are in romantic love ....But the meaning of the word ' Love'  is confusingly wider than a lover's imagination.The diversity of uses and meanings ....from I love ice cream to I love you......combined with the feelings involved, makes this divine concept nearly impossible to constantly define, even compared to other emotional states.

well........we can say,.....love's the emotion of strong affection and personal attachment.....its not just a virtue ,but the basis of all living beings.Everyone want to love and to be loved...Even animals have their own way to express love, right?....

still the question remains unanswered....what exactly's love??....If you are in search of the most suitable definition for Love,.. I'm sure...You'll never find a better definition than the one given by The Holy Bible...........

"Love is patient, kind,without envy. It is not boastful or arrogant.It is not ill-mannered nor does it seek it's own interest. Love overcomes anger and forget offenses. It does not take delight in wrong, but rejoices in truth. Love excuse everything. It believes ,hopes, endures all things.................."

Beautiful......isn't it?

And if you are in search of LOVE instead of its definition,..you don't have to work so much...its inside you....if that's not enough...don't think that you'll never get the love just like the way you want it......it'll come to you......and the glad news is.....if it doesn't.....you'll  have another choice............
..................you can turn to someone whose love's so overwhelming.......that  can take your breath away.........so forgiving............   that  can make you weep out of happiness.........


...............GOD!!!

Anyways,

the 'Love Month's going on..........

my inbox's full of 'Love Guru' messages...I didn't ask for it, guys...still they keep sending.........
I wonder...............is that concept even relevant???.......
Love itself's a Guru, right?....It will teach you  how to become a better daughter... a better partner...a better sister........and above all ...if you are in love, you'll learn how to sacrifice your own happiness just to see a smile on your dear one's face........
...what's more....it will make you  to go to the length of laying down your life for your loved one..............................so,......I don't think that there's a necessity of a Guru to teach what love is and how to love.......

Well.....may be I'm wrong............mmm...we'll see

Hi

First ,let me introduce myself. .I'm ........well,The Phoenix. Though, I don't possess any qualities that a Phoenix supposed to have.......not yet,that's what I would love to call myself.

To tell tell truth, I don't even know if in reality this bird exists or not.........What do you think?...........

Still... I love that concept...Just look at this image ...Isn't it wonderful??....the way it arises out of the fire...so delicate..and..confident.

The Phoenix has long been presented as a symbol of rebirth and renewal.It is supposed to be a mythical bird with a fire spirit...It never dies...near the end of its life cycle, the bird burns fiercely and reduced to ashes from which a new,young Phoenix arises.....reborn anew to live again......

Impressive...Isn't it?.

Well.....at the present state of my life,  I need a renewal too....

Oh yes...I went through the worst period of my life...with lots of pain,sufferings,frustrations..and related blah blah blah.........

It's not like I'm the poorest living being in the world who had to suffer a lot.......I know that so many people are out there...who are still going through a lot more than what I've suffered......

But for me,it was a big deal....Things didn't turn out just like the way I've planned.......I had to quit my dream job...and that pain was killing me that I would've been prefer death than to suffer it.....

You know,being a nobody's my worst nightmare...and...well, I hate to admit it...but at the present state, I'm a nobody......It's against my nature,guys....I'm not the the kind of girl who'll accept defeat easily....I have complete confidence in myself and know that I shall pass through this also.........I hate losing.

...Well....as far as I'm concerned,I have three choices before me.....

First and foremost I can let my self hide in my own shell from the dull life that I'm having now and never quite achieve the full strength of my inner self....and it seems to be the easiest way for me as there're so many wings to protect me.

Secondly,I can act like a victim of some unexpected circumstances and keep blaming my fate...and..well..God.

And last but not at all the least, I can act like a Phoenix,which arises out of the ashes........

As you rightly guessed,..I wanna lean towards The Phoenix.......In fact,I wanna be the Phoenix.

That's why I chose the name...You get it??........

I'm in search of a new beginning....

For that I have to burn my lower nature to allow the most splendid parts of my character to live and grow....of course, like a Phoenix.

As an after effect of all those bad experiences....I'm kind of getting used to show a dull indifference to life...but this aloofness is just the surface of my nature....below the surface of my indifferent exterior, there's a scorching passionate fire...I know it...and it seems like.. others sense it too....

I desperately hope that by writing about myself and by sharing my thoughts...I' can find that fire somewhere inside me...and with that flame I'll reduce my lower self into ashes....from which a new ME will arise.